In Regards to Fictional Character Death

I'm currently grieving for the death of another fictional character...
And it's far more worse!

Getting to attached for a being that was never real from the start. But having it dead is far worse, because it's like a loss of an existing, disappearing without notice.

You've left with nothing, nothing at all. It's different from a real life death because at least, you still have their memories, the chance that you've been with them, a chance to know them and the memories that you've felt when you're with them.

But with a fictional character, it''s different. They don't know you, and you haven't got the chance to really be with them.

Imagine having an unrequited love to someone, someone you've never got the chance to talk to and that someone died right in front your very eyes without having the chance to tell them you love them. Not even having a chance to touch them or to have them look into your eyes.
Not even once.

IT FUCKING HURTS!! It hurts, and you constantly experience this because ALL THOSE DAMNED AUTHORS KEEPS ON KILLING THEIR FUCKING CHARACTERS!!
MAY ALL OF YOU BURN IN HELL!!