But I am a Hater of Humans and that just contradicts everything. In result, I love what love can do to a person, how it reduces them to something that makes them a bit more miserable, a bit more distrusting, a bit more deluded.
I love how much darkness love could bring, I love how it could cause tragic wars, broken hearts, shattered minds and withered souls. For the past few years, I could only see what negative feelings one could possibly have whenever love has infected his being. Even if love was never meant that way, humans are honed to that.
How many have died in its name? How many wars had been started at its wake. And I'm not only patronizing the love sheltered in a heart of a man loving another but in its every aspects. Because love sure is omnipotent.
Love for others, Love for material things, Love for country, Love for oneself... Countless have suffered from its wake, each and every step of it leaves only a river of tears and misery.
But, never had I ever said that I hate Love, because I could never hate love... Love is what makes me feel and that feeling is something that I would never regret for love goes hand in hand. For one could not feel love without ever feeling hatred...
According to Elie Wiesel, "The opposite of Love is not Hate, it's Indifference."
I may think that I am the likes of a monster, a despicable being that feeds on the negativity of life, and I may constantly show indifference but that maybe because I'm afraid that if I don't show indifference and lose control, It will cause a devastating effect. I'm afraid that if I feel too much, I'll hurt too much. And you know what, not feeling hurts too, trying not to feel hurts. And my thought and emotions are mostly unrefined, intrusive, and a subject to misunderstanding that could cause a rift to those who doesn't now the other facets of my personality and it bring me to fear that I would truly and irrevocably be left alone for all eternity.
And this goes back to the topic of Love. for love is something that doesn't always covet, steal, or takes away. It's doesn't always side on a single point but an equal being. In the old saying, "All is fair in Love and War." It doesn't take sides and anything could happen.
That gives me to a conclusion that one could not truly love if you only side to what you believe without understanding the other side. That Love isn't all about the darkness, the shade, the night but it also gives light, a way, a guide, a destination.
And I may not completely change my views what with the constant reminder of All the things that Love could do but If I have even an ounce of trying to squint through it's endless puddle of black, I could see a tiny speck of light, A star that could shine and bring a bit of sparkle, a chance to Loving and being Loved.
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